Long Time...

There has been quite a gap in our posting in the last couple of months...we were on a roll there for awhile! To be honest, this new year has brought new challenges and even less time to devote to our blog.

Not to worry...we're still here and will continue to post from time to time, but right now is just a particularly busy time for us. We'd appreciate your prayers as we continue in the adoption process. No news at this point, as we're waiting and trusting that God will bless us with children according to his perfect plan.

Thanks for checking in!

Much love,
C & M

**We'll leave you with this picture from New Year's Eve. Cliff's parents hosted a fantastic Retro Prom themed party...if you couldn't tell, we are "from" the 1980's.

Mackenzie's Reading List - 2011

Last year I started what I hope will become an annual tradition of selecting the books I'd like to read over the course of the coming year. Planning in this way helped me be intentional about my reading. I really enjoyed the process of selecting the books at the beginning of the year, buying and borrowing them, and then actually reading! My list is a bit longer this year, and I'm sure I'll continue to add to it as the months go by.


Many of the books on my list were recommended by friends, and I like that. It's nice to know when a particular book has been meaningful to someone you love and care about.


So without further ado, here are the twenty books I plan to read in 2011:

• Be Still, My Soul: Embracing God's Purpose and Provision in Suffering by Nancy Guthrie
• You Can Change by Tim Chester
• Desiring God by John Piper
• Every Thought Captive by Jerusha Clark
• Shepherding a Child's Heart by Tedd Tripp
• Road Map to Holland: How I Found My Way Through My Son's First Two Years With Down Syndrome by Jennifer Graf Groneberg
• Choosing Gratitude: Your Journey to Joy by Nancy Leigh DeMoss
• Counterfeit Gods by Tim Keller
• Sacred Influence by Gary Thomas
• Trusting God Even When Life Hurts by Gerry Bridges
• Whiter Than Snow: Meditations on Sin and Mercy by Paul David Tripp
• The Screwtape Letters by C.S. Lewis
• War of Words by Paul David Tripp
• Spiritual Disciplines for the Christian Life by Donald S. Whitney
• Mountains Beyond Mountains by Tracy Kidder
• Farm City: The Education of an Urban Farmer by Novella Carpenter
• Coop by Michael Perry
• Lord of the Flies by William Golding
• Adventures of Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain
• The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society by Mary Ann Shaffer and Annie Barrows

Each day I'll also be reading:

• The Bible (ESV)
• Prayers of an Excellent Wife: Intercession for Him by Andrew Case

What are you reading this year? Anything you think I should add to my list?

Mackenzie's 2010 Book List in Review

At the beginning of last year, I posted my reading list for the year. I really enjoyed planning what I'd read and being intentional with this area of my life. So much so, that I'm currently working on my reading list for 2011, and I'll share that as soon as it is complete.

Today, though, I thought I'd share with you how I did this past year in completing my reading list. I certainly didn't read everything I'd intended to, but I read most! I also read quite a few books this year that weren't on my list.

Books on my list that I actually read:

• Death by Love: Letters from the Cross (Re:Lit) by Mark Driscoll & Gerry Breshears
• Womanly Dominion: More Than A Gentle and Quiet Spirit by Mark Chanski
• Instruments in the Redeemer's Hands by Paul David Tripp
• Animal, Vegetable, Miracle: A Year of Food Life (P.S.) by Barbara Kingsolver
• Real Food: What to Eat and Why by Nina Planck
• The Jesus Storybook Bible: Every Story Whispers His Name by Sally Lloyd-Jones
• In Defense of Food: An Eater's Manifesto by Michael Pollan
• From Clutter to Clarity: Simplifying Life from the Inside Out by Nancy Twigg
• Humility: True Greatness by C. J. Mahaney & Joshua Harris

Books I'd planned to read this year, but didn't:

• The Screwtape Letters by C. S. Lewis (I am putting it on my list for 2011.)
• The Majesty of the Law by Sandra Day O'Connor (I started it, but lost interest.)
• Desiring God: Meditations of a Christian Hedonist by John Piper (I think I'm intimidated! I am putting it on my list for 2011.)

Books that weren't on my list, but I read this year:

• Adopted for Life by Russell Moore - An absolute must read!
• Fields of the Fatherless by Tom Davis
• Hannah's Hope by Jennifer Saake - As I wrote in my review, apart from Scripture, this book has been the most helpful to me in processing our infertility.
• Why Was I Adopted? by Carole Livingston
• A Homemade Life by Molly Wizenberg
• A Praying Life by Paul R. Miller
• So Long, Insecurity by Beth Moore
• Hotel on the Corner of Bitter and Sweet by Jamie Ford
• Come, Thou Long-Expected Jesus: Experiencing the Peace and Promise of Christmas
  by Nancy Guthrie
• The Help by Katheryn Stockett
• Crazy Love: Overwhelmed by a Relentless God by Francis Chan
• One with a Shepherd: The Tears and Triumphs of a Ministry Marriage by Mary Somerville
• Lies Women Believe: And the Truth that Sets Them Free by Nancy Leigh DeMoss
• I probably forgot a few! :)

As I look over the books I've read this year, I can see the trends of the year - infertility, adoption, my growing interest in cooking and food, learning about Biblical womanhood, and a few historical fiction books sprinkled here and there.

I'm thankful for the things I've learned and the way God has used these books to shape and prepare me. I'll share my 2011 list very soon!

Family Time: Coming Soon!

I am very excited to have only three more days of work this week and then two weeks off for winter break! I am really looking forward to that time away from work and our typical routine and enjoy time with Cliff, friends, and family.

I can hardly wait for our out of town family to arrive! My sister Katie and her husband Brent fly in from Kansas on Sunday evening. Then on Tuesday my brother Bidong arrives from Nebraska to spend about 10 days here in Seattle. We love spending time with Kate, Brent, and Bidong and are so blessed by their friendship and love. (My parents are pretty great too, but they're not traveling in!)

I love that our family will be all together...that we'll be able to enjoy one another, relax, and remember what we're really celebrating. I pray each day that God would continue to burden my heart for Him; that I would be reminded that this season isn't about checking things off my list, decorating, or buying gifts for all the people we love, it is about Jesus.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. -1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

We have much to be thankful for, and I'm grateful we have a whole day set aside to do just that. God is so good, and I'm looking forward to spending today thinking about all He has blessed me with.

We're heading over to my parents house at some point today to enjoy time with one another, eat delicious food, and most importantly thank God for his many blessings.

Wishing you all a very Happy Thanksgiving!

Love,
Mackenzie (& Cliff)

Garden: Season in Review

We had quite a bit of success in our gardening adventure this year...certainly more than we did last year.


Some reflections:

• Our lettuce, zucchini, sugar snap peas, Swiss chard, kale, green beans, garlic, cucumbers, herbs, berries, and potatoes were fantastic! They will all be repeats next year.


• Square foot gardening is the way to go...so manageable, maximizes our space and yields, and provides some practical guidance for managing a home garden.


• We won't plant potatoes in our raised beds again - they end up taking over! I found some of our red potatoes underneath my tomato plants. Instead, we're planning to plant them in a garbage can so they're contained. More to come on that...


• Our carrots were awesome! We will definitely be planting more of them next spring.


• Our onions weren't wildly successful...we probably won't use the garden space on them again next year.


• Our tomatoes did poorly. The cool summer and huge amount of rain we got this spring and summer did not lead to a booming crop of tomatoes. This was also the case for our poor peppers...we didn't harvest any, which was disappointing considering we had red peppers coming out of our ears last year. We will definitely be trying again next year!

Overall, this year was a success. I've tried my best to "put up" many of our crops either through canning or freezing. I have enough zucchini to make zucchini bread from now until next year's crop comes through.

I look forward to continuing to learn and improve our garden. Lots to think about and plan for next year. Even though we still have a few things out in the garden, our growing season is definitely coming to a close. Certainly because of our mild climate, we could grow through the winter, but I think a break will do us all good.

Adoption Update: Emotional Roller Coaster

This past week or so has been interesting, to say the least. About a week and a half ago (the same day Mackenzie had her wisdom teeth removed), we heard from Special Delivery, an adoption ministry at Overlake Christian Church. They asked if we were interested in being considered as potential adoptive parents for a child due on December 7. The birth mom had a family selected for her daughter; however, the planned adoptive family withdrew from the adoption plan. Mackenzie and I talked about it, prayed, and decided to be considered as a potential adoptive couple.

The crazy part was we didn't have a profile created or our home study completed. In a matter of a few hours, we rushed to put together a profile to explain our life and family to this birth mom and hire a social worker to write our home study. We also put together a letter to the birth parents explaining who we are and why God has placed a call on our hearts to adopt.

The birth mom's case manager shared our profile and a number of other families' profiles that weekend. We got a call late that Sunday afternoon, saying she chose us and two other families to meet with on Thursday in Yakima, WA.

So on Thursday, we drove to Yakima, braving the snowy conditions, and met with the birth mom, her mom, and a woman from Special Delivery, who facilitated the conversation. Having no idea what to expect, we were thankful that the conversation flowed rather naturally. We talked about how we met, what we liked to do for fun, and our vision for parenting. The conversation lasted for about an hour. We both left feeling like it had went as well as we could have possibly wanted. In fact, the whole week had. Things just kept falling into place.

When we left Yakima on Thursday, the long (sometimes painful) process of waiting began. We continued to pray and temper our excitement that this could possibly be the child God had planned to place in our family. Our friends and family were great throughout the week. They prayed for us, brought meals over, and genuinely shared in our excitement and anticipation.

But unfortunately, I got the call yesterday afternoon letting us know that we were not chosen as the adoptive family. The birth mom's case manager shared that after we left our interview, the birth mom commented: "All the families were great. How am I supposed to decide now?!?" She ended up choosing a family that already has children and was excited for her little girl to have siblings.

We are of course very disappointed, but thankful that we were given this opportunity and were even considered. The case manager asked if she could keep our profile to share with other birth moms, and we of course said yes!

In the last week and a half, we've been praying for God's will to be done and it has...now we're praying that our response would be honoring to him. We know God has a child for us and pray for the day we welcome him or her into our family.

We are so thankful for your prayers, support, love, and encouragement over the last week. It's truly been an emotional roller coaster, but we're thankful God has put so many people in our lives who are willing to ride it with us.

Auction Extravaganza

Each year, Antioch Adoptions hosts two major fundraisers - a banquet and an auction. Two weeks ago, we had the opportunity to attend the Taste of Compassion auction. Because we'd never been to this auction before, we were unsure of what to expect. We were thankful to have Rita and Gary (Cliff's parents who flew in from Indiana!) and my dad attend with us, as well as some other friends from church. Having friends and family there made a fun night even more enjoyable.

There was a silent auction with lots of items to choose from, including a generous donation from our friends, Kyle and Kathleen, who own The Creative Date. We enjoyed delicious food from Seastar restaurant, Class Act Catering, and Bonsai Sushi as we perused the silent auction items and made our bids. There was also an engaging live auction with a phenomenal auctioneer who made it great fun.

Midway through the live auction, we heard a moving and entertaining testimony from a 17 year old who was adopted as a child. It was a great reminder of why we were all there.

Overall, the event was phenomenal! There was an incredible amount of work that went into pulling off such a complex evening, but it was organized and managed beautifully. And the auction managed to raise over $52,000 - enough money to sponsor six adoptions! That is absolutely amazing!

We continue to pray for Antioch Adoptions, for the staff, and for generous people to donate to this ministry. We invite you to pray and give as you feel called. If you're interested in donating in any way (one time donations or regular giving), go to the Antioch Adoptions website or comment below, and we'll help you get connected!

Goin' Under the Knife

Believe it or not, I still have all my wisdom teeth. Unfortunately (or fortunately depending on how you look at it), they are all being removed on Thursday morning. I only have a few more days with them. I can't say I'm excited about the surgery, but I am thankful that I have anesthesia and a four day weekend so I won't have to take any time off of work.

If you think of it tomorrow (Thursday), please pray for the surgery that it goes well and without complication. Also, please pray that my sweet husband has the patience to deal with me as I recover. I'm sure I'll be asking for jello, milkshakes, frappuccinos, applesauce, and medicine constantly on Thursday and Friday.

Randomberry Jam

I came up with my own jam "flavor" last night...Randomberry. (Well at least I'd never heard of it!) Sounds delish, right?

It was born out of a realization that my freezer was full of berries. I had strawberries, blueberries, and a combo bag of frozen marionberries, raspberries, and blackberries from Costco that needed to be finished up! Plus, all of them were taking up precious space in my freezer.

So what's a girl to do?
Toss them all in a pot, add sugar, add some pectin, and can away!

I have to admit, it tastes quite delicious.

It's Been Awhile

I realized this morning that it's been over a month since we last posted something on our blog. As you can imagine, it's been a busy month. Among other things, toward the beginning of the month, we went to our most recent meeting at Antioch Adoptions to learn about some changes they've made to their adoption process, as well as more about our homestudy.

Since then, we've slowly but surely been answering the seemingly endless pages of questions that our case manager will use for our two in-home interviews. The goal, as I understand it, is for our case manager to get to know us, so that he/she can eventually write our homestudy, which basically indicates that we've been approved for adoption by our agency. A judge will then use that document to ultimately decide whether or not to finalize our adoption once it gets to that point.

In addition to working on our homestudy homework, we've also started gathering pictures to use for our family profile, which is basically an extensive brochure for a birth mom to look through when trying to choose a family to place her child with. Once we're approved for placement, Antioch Adoptions will begin looking for a birth mom and/or child to match us with based on any criteria we've provided or the birth mom has provided. In our case we don't have a preference when it comes to gender or race, but we are hoping and praying for a child who is one or younger (at least, as Mackenzie likes to say, this "round"). We're also open to multiples (twins, triplets) and sibling groups (an infant with an older brother or sister, for example).

In the midst of all of this, we had an amazing experience this past Sunday. After we shared our testimony at the Ballard campus about our struggles with infertility and pursuit of adoption, a young woman came up to us after the service and told us she was a birth mom who had created an adoption plan through Antioch Adoptions a few months earlier. She gave us her contact info and offered to meet with us to share her story and answer any questions we had. We were amazed at her willingness to support us during such a difficult time in her own life.

So we followed up with her and arranged to have lunch this past Sunday. As can be expected, it was a little awkward at first as none of us knew exactly where to start. But once she backed up a bit and started telling us how she got pregnant and why she decided to create an adoption plan for her child, the questions and conversation flowed naturally. She told us about the birth father's reaction to her decision, as well as reactions from her family members--all of which left her feeling alone and isolated.

But she was thankful for the relationship she had with the adoptive family, which began while she was still pregnant and has continued after her child was born. She has felt loved and welcomed into their family and continues to be a part of her child's life. In many ways Mackenzie and I felt like her situation represented a best-case scenario, even though there were still ongoing struggles and difficulties. It was amazing to see God's grace at work in her life and her child's life and to see God fulfill his promise in Romans 8:28 that he will use any situation or circumstance for good.

We were also excited to learn earlier this week that my parents are flying out in just over a week for the Antioch Adoptions Auction. I think it'll be a great opportunity for them to see first-hand why we're so thankful for Antioch Adoptions' ministry and the people who are so passionate about caring for orphans, supporting birth parents, and helping adoptive families. (If anyone else is interested in joining us on Saturday, November 6th at 6pm at Overlake Christian Church in Redmond, let us know.)

We'll be sure to post pictures from this event and keep you all posted on our progress through the homestudy process. Thank you all for your love, support, and prayers.

Modern Day MacGyver

We've really enjoyed watching TV shows on DVD and particularly through our Netflix account. We just started watching 24 because we'd heard it was good and were curious about what the hype was all about.

Turns out, we are loving it too! The format of 24 episodes, each covering one hour, so that the whole season spans one day is intriguing and quite brilliant. We're not sure we'll watch all eight seasons, but we're certainly enjoying this first season.

After watching the first few episodes, I equated Jack Bauer (the main character) as the MacGyver of the current generation. Loved that MacGyver could save the world with a roll of duct tape and a chocolate bar, and I love that Jack Bauer can defy every policy, protocol, and federal guideline in the name of justice.

Contentment

This month, our church is doing a series of blog posts about Biblical Womanhood. Over the course of this month, many women from different stages of life are sharing what God is teaching them. I have been incredibly encouraged and humbled by the wisdom and grace of the women reflecting on their walks with Jesus.

Tonight as I sat down to catch up on my forever growing Google Reader, a post by Deacon Amy Lockman about Stewarding Singleness really spoke to my heart. You may be wondering how and why a blog about singleness would convict me. While Amy used illustrations related to singleness, her reflections were really about contentment. The questions she asked apply to anyone, any struggle, in any stage of life. The following section of her blog post was particularly poignant for me and will be part of my prayer time and reflections this week. Amy shared:

"Each time I start to struggle through my singleness, I have to ask myself the following questions:

• Do I trust that he has ordained my days? (Psalm 139: 5, 6, 16)
• Do I trust that he supplies all I need? (Matthew 6:32)
• Do I trust that never will he leave me or forsake me? (Joshua 1:5)
• Do I trust that who I am in Christ defines me? (Colossians 2:10)

If I am trying to just hang on until I get married and don’t accept my singleness in this season, then I am saying that these days that God has ordained are not enough, that he made a mistake and is a liar."

For me, it isn't about singleness, but infertility.

• Do I trust that God has ordained my days and the days of our children?
• Do I believe that God knows the exact moment we will have children and how they will come into our family?
• Do I define myself as a daughter of Christ or as a woman struggling with infertility?
• Am I content in where God has me right now or am I just hanging on until we adopt a child?
• Is God still good even if we never get pregnant?
• Is God still good even if we don't become parents?

I want to say I always answer a resounding yes to all those questions, but honestly apart from Jesus, I don't. I pray for strength daily, that by God's grace he would help me to be content in this struggle we're facing and continue to teach me in his ways.

Antioch Adoptions Auction

The Antioch Adoptions Benefit Auction for Orphans is coming up on November 6! Cliff and I are excited to attend this event and support this amazing ministry. What makes Antioch Adoptions so amazing is that they place orphans into Christian families without charging any fees to the adoptive family! Of course because Antioch Adoptions is an adoption agency like any other, they still have real costs even though they don't charge the family for the adoption. We feel so blessed to be working with them!

The annual auction is important because Antioch Adoptions relies on donors to provide the financial resources to place orphans into families. Can you help?

Do you have something you could donate for the auction?
Click HERE to access the procurement form.

Would you like to attend this event with us?
We'd love that! Comment and let us know or send us an email. Tickets go on sale soon.

Also, please continue to pray for the amazing staff members at Antioch Adoptions, that many adoptions would be finalized in the coming weeks and months, and for the success of this event!

Sharing Our Story

A few Sundays ago at each of the services at the Mars Hill Ballard Campus, Mackenzie and I had the honor of sharing about our struggles with infertility and the call God has put on our lives to adopt. It was a very full and emotional day, but we were very thankful to have good friends come to support us throughout the day, which meant so much.



Throughout the day we had several opportunities to talk with couples also struggling with infertility, people who had friends and family members who had adopted or had been adopted, and even a birth mom who had created an adoption plan for her child through Antioch Adoptions.

We’re thankful for the work God is doing in our lives, the ways in which he's comforted us through various people we've met, and the opportunities he’s given us to comfort other people facing similar struggles and decisions.

Camping Trip

A few weeks ago, Mackenzie and I filled our Honda Civic with camping gear and supplies and went on a three-day adventure along the Washington Coast and around the Olympic National Park. We've been to the Washington Coast before, but never to the Olympic peninsula.

And believe it or not, this is only the second time we've been camping since we've lived in Washington. The first was for our second anniversary. It wasn't exactly a disaster, but we did get rained on quite a bit, and in hindsight it didn't seem like we packed all the supplies we should have. That wasn't entirely the reason we hadn't been camping again, but I think it kept Mackenzie from wanting to do so anytime soon.

But we wanted to take a short trip this summer and knew we needed to do so with a small budget, so we decided to give camping another go. I'm happy to say our second experience was far better than our first.

We stayed at Kalaloch Campground, literally one block from the beach. Even in August it was cloudy and cool, but we kept a warm fire going at all times while at our site. We even did most of our cooking over the fire, which I think was one of Mackenzie's favorite things. We went with a few of the tried-and-true camping favorites (hobo stew, franks and beans, smores, etc.) and even tried making bacon and coffee over the fire.

While we were there, we took a few hikes along the beach, as well as a few day trips to the Hoh Rain Forest, La Push, and Ruby Beach. Driving just a few miles from the coast, the sun would start to peak out and the temperature would increase by at least ten degrees--weird Washington weather.

My favorite part was lunch along the Hoh River. We found a spot just off the beaten path, stuck our feet in the freezing cold water, and enjoyed the view.

On our way home we took the northern route and stopped along the way to explore Port Angeles, Hurricane Ridge, and Port Townsend. We're already making plans to go back.

Trip to Friday Harbor

As I started to write a post about our trip to the Washington Coast a few weeks ago (coming soon), I realized I hadn't written anything about our trip to Friday Harbor in July with my parents. This summer has just flown by (due partly to the fact that warm, sunny days have been few and far between, which unfortunately, was the case on our trip). But we didn't let that stop us; we never do.

We had a great time exploring San Juan Island: watching for whales along Lime Kiln Point, having breakfast and dinner at Roche Harbor, visiting Mona the camel at the San Juan Vineyard, and hiking through the English Camp and American Camp. Check out some pictures from our trip below.

Garden Update: Veggies are Thriving

In lieu of writing about how our garden is growing, I thought pictures would tell you more!

No, I'm not Laura Ingalls...

but I am enjoying my new adventures in canning!

For my birthday last year, my parents gave me a cooking class. I chose from a number of them and selected a class on canning. I loved the class, typically enjoy cooking, and was excited to apply my new learning.

In January I made citrus marmalade and enjoyed the process, eating my creation, and sharing it with friends. Now that we're gardening and bringing in quite a bit of produce, I'd like to take a more serious approach.

My goal this summer is to can most of our tomatoes (we don't really eat them fresh), make blueberry jam with all the blueberries from our bushes, make applesauce from our apple tree, blackberry jam from our blackberry vine (if it produces enough), and pickled jalapenos. Many of our other veggies we look forward to freezing to use throughout the year. I'm also in the process of learning how to dry and store our herbs.

So far this year I've made and "put up" three pints of preserved lemons, four pints of lemon marmalade, two pints of pickled carrots, quite a bit of strawberry jam, five pints of sliced peaches, and I think next on my list will be blackberry jam once our blackberries ripen!

Check out a few of my products...

preserved lemons

lemon marmalade

FAQs

Here are some of the most frequently asked questions as we pursue adoption, so I'll do my best to answer them!

How long do you think the process will take?
We don't know! That is the challenge and excitement of adoption. It could be a year, it could be many years. What we do know though is that it will all happen according to God's perfect timing. That is to say, we certainly have days where we're discouraged or anxious for the arrival of our children, but ultimately we find peace in placing our trust and hope in Jesus and not in the day our kids are welcomed into our home. (That will be an exciting day though!)

Why are you guys pursuing adoption?
We are pursuing adoption, because we feel called to do so. While we struggled to get pregnant and later learned that medically speaking our chances of getting pregnant without medical intervention are very slim, we feel called to pursue adoption. That is to say, if we do become pregnant, we would still pursue adoption of other children into our family.

What age of a child are you interested in adopting?
At this point, we are planning to adopt an infant or a very young child or sibling group. We are open to God changing our hearts about this, but for now, we're looking to grow as parents with a very little person.

Do you have any specifics that you told your agency - race? gender?
We are open and excited to welcome a child of any race or gender into our home and family.

Are you adopting domestically or internationally?
Antioch Adoptions, our fabulous adoption agency, serves families in western Washington and most of the children they place are from within our state. While in certain instances, children have been placed by Antioch from other states across the country, all the children are from the United States.

We may eventually adopt internationally, but for "Round One," as we like to call it, we'll be adopting domestically.

Where are you in the adoption process?
We recently finished our PRIDE classes, which are classes for people interested in becoming foster homes or adoptive homes. This is a requirement of both the state and our agency before we can move forward in the process. In October and January, we'll be taking two classes through our adoption agency. After that we'll complete a home study, where a social worker will evaluate our home to determine whether placement of a child would be appropriate. From there, we'll be waiting on placement.

Other questions? Ask away!